To me as I know the ropes of it all, (that I am trying to explain) and even knitted them, it isn’t hard to see the overall picture and the little motifs within the whole. I don’t want to say too much as I hope you will take my words and realise they explain various “patterns” of which you are aware, and from which you might then see another whole system making sense (of which I am totally unaware). I can’t tell you how relieved I am to find myself finally downloading it with the anticipation that this time I will finally succeed in finishing to do that. Then what is done with it (or not) is up to others. The “discipline” provided by this Edge Lane CPO High Court challenge brief / narrow window is the silver lining to that particular cloud hanging over me currently. That possibly some good will come from it all I hope will alleviate my anxiety during the court hearing. That my own government are apparently betraying me (as well as did my obstetrician and husband) is not a very easy issue to cope with. The “Do I deserve it / am I asking for it?” question might have got to me more if it hadn’t been for the additional injuries in three road traffic accidents, which I am certain were nothing whatever to do with me. Life is complex isn’t it? People are imperfect, and certainly influenced in what they do and feel by situations. I am fully aware that any time soon I might again go “down the pan”, so must finish this before that happens, or I’ll have even more to regret.
So, as I was saying, what is entirely embraced by this Universal Law is the concept of “free will”. That isn’t in the least licence to do as you like, it is simply that choice is an essential part of the dynamics of change upon which the dimension of time and (thus ongoing) creation depend. The idea of Utopia, as in nothing changes, is absurd. Not that we can’t strive for “the best of all possible worlds”, as striving for such is like housework, it has to be done, otherwise things get a great deal worse. Striving for striving’s sake, or doing anything for its own sake may not be too clever. We need to paint the picture of our lives using a full pallet of colours. I have to admit more than I would have liked of mine has been in shadow, but there have been some very bright spots amidst the sorrows, and my (young) children provided tremendous joy. I was so lucky (as you will see if you look at the photo album, as long as I can keep the website down to the 250 megabytes I can afford, that I hope to put together). I was the sort of Mum that cried not only when they started school, but cried when it was the end of the summer holidays. They turned rather less of a joy, and the boys very much of a worry in their teens, but that is natural, especially as added to their lives was the inconvenience of what was a competent mother suddenly rendered pretty well useless (in practical terms) as well as deeply saddened by another RTA (and the need to sell or kill all my livestock) this time inflicting leg / mobility injuries. A full life is not all bright lights, we would “burn out our retinas”, as some have done, who have earned or won huge sums of money. Additionally, if I had been “successful” maybe I would not have had the time free to do all this thinking, and would not have had the various experiences (mostly unwelcome) that have proved so much (to me at least) of what I am trying to describe.
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